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Monday, April 14, 2008
Meeting with the Doctor Tomorrow
By JB aka JayBee
Tomorrow JSP and I go in and meet with Dr. A for the first time since my IL-2 treatment. I am bracing myself for Dr. A to suggest that I undergo another IL-2 treatment.
I will not be happy to comply with his request. I am at peace with the knowledge that I may not have that much more time on this earth. This makes the idea that I will trade a week of relative health and well being for a week in the hospital literally undergoing hell really very unappealing. Add in the unpleasant week of recovery time, and I am literally giving up two weeks of my precious life for the small possibility that the IL-2 treatments are actually going to do me any good.
Of course, having a doctor tell you that you should undergo a treatment can be very persuasive.
I don't know what decision I will make. The IL-2 treatment was honestly the worst thing I have ever lived through. I am happy that JSP will be at the consultation with me.
My recent complaints about this whole cancer thing are:
I will not be happy to comply with his request. I am at peace with the knowledge that I may not have that much more time on this earth. This makes the idea that I will trade a week of relative health and well being for a week in the hospital literally undergoing hell really very unappealing. Add in the unpleasant week of recovery time, and I am literally giving up two weeks of my precious life for the small possibility that the IL-2 treatments are actually going to do me any good.
Of course, having a doctor tell you that you should undergo a treatment can be very persuasive.
I don't know what decision I will make. The IL-2 treatment was honestly the worst thing I have ever lived through. I am happy that JSP will be at the consultation with me.
My recent complaints about this whole cancer thing are:
- I notice that climbing stairs makes me winded more often now than it used to.
- A tendon in the back of my right knee has been hurting sharply when I extend my leg or walk normally.
- Having my back scratched while I lay in bed.
- Enjoying a long hot bath.
- Enjoying dinner with my parents and my partner.
Labels: hospital, Melanoma, perspective
4 Comments:
Kristen wrote:
It is a testament to your spirit that your list of recent joys is longer than your list of recent complaints.
Jeremy wrote:
It is clear from reading this blog, JB, that you are a truly strong person. Let me take this moment to remind you about all of us who are rooting for you every day. Hang in there. We miss you on the soccer field.
Miss Melanoma wrote:
Okay, I think I might be in love with you.
Your list of joys makes me smile and I love that you have decided to do what's best for you. Thanks for making us all remember the good stuff.
-MM