A few regrets

The weekend has nearly passed by, somewhat slowly in terms of what I expect. Several visitors have come to the house, some bearing food and cake and others to share hugs. I have spent a lot of time online reading e-mail, tracking facebook and upkeeping the blog. Every time I read these comments I become intensely moved and emotional, I continue to be amazed by the degree JB touched people's lives.
This morning I again woke up early. I keep thinking after a busy day I will sleep well and feel fully refreshed in the morning. So far no luck. On the other hand I am thankful I do not feel crappy either, just somewhere in between. I usually start to stir in the AM and my mind gathers speed. This morning I was thinking of the many things that JB and I had discussed doing together, our plans and wishes.
My goal here is to write down a list of what I would call regrets. Things we wanted to do or places we wanted to go, but never got the chance. Mainly because our time was short, or his health was poor, but also because we simply put it off for another day. I am in a stable emotional place while doing this, not beating myself up or blaming myself because they were not done. I do this to create a memory I can return to year after year, and hopefully help remind myself to make the best efforts to do the things I want to do while I can.

Return to the Netherlands to visit friends and places
Travel to New Jersey, New York and Philadelphia for friends.
Spend time in New Orleans together.
Fly our kites on a nice windy day.
Attend another performance at the Guthrie theater.
Go to South America for our new adventure.
Remodel our upstairs bathroom.
Take a long bath together.
Canoe some lake or river together.

I will probably be adding to this list as more thoughts come to my head about things that JB and I wanted to do but ran out of time.